One of the first verses of the Qur’an I remember leaving a huge impact on me was this –
And We did not create the heaven and earth and that between them in play. (21:16)
It kind of explained why the whole life thing felt a little off. Everyone going about like it’s not a miracle to be a living breathing accident. And it felt good for the elephant in the room, our random seeming existence, to be finally addressed. I felt understood.
We all have those philosophical questions and we all don’t know what to do with them.
So some of us pile them into the back of a closet with our old toys and rhyme books, chipped hearts and cracked self-esteems and souvenirs collected on our way to growing up. I did just that.
We tell ourselves stories about aliens controlling us or finding a portal to another dimension. The stories keep getting deeper and darker so we can forget the crushing weight of our own curiosity.
I finally felt like I do not have to wonder endlessly or carry that weight alone.
By the time I read about verses that get the most limelight and their weird interpretations, I had absorbed so much of the Qur’an these things didn’t feel out of place or scary. It felt interesting like when someone tells you a crazy gossip about your BFF and you find it funny how this person thinks they know your homie better than you do. And indeed the words of Allah are above any analogy.
I felt hopeful, understood and humbled that God cares about good old principles and morality like it would matter when the world ends. You can’t help but respect a book that understands you more than you can even begin to understand yourself let alone God.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
I have a thing for nature, it gives me this spiritual high to think I am a part of this breathtaking glory. Its like a battleground out there and everyday is a war, just to see another day.In a recent camping trip I found out how vulnerable as humans we really are. How in the world, did we fragile and physically disadvantaged beings come to be so much more while others are busy surviving. I keep wondering and wondering over this but in the end all I have left to say is alhamdulilah! Allah (subhana wa ta’ala) has really favored us.
And We have certainly honored the children of Adam and carried them on the land and sea and provided for them of the good things and preferred them over much of what We have created, with [definite] preference.[17:70]
The competition is cut throat out there. No muslim can go without saying subhanAllah or Allahu Akbar after watching any of the wild life shows on tv or any mind blowing discovery that science makes. I can’t get enough watching nature at its best and the humility that comes with it. In this war of the most skilled and perfectly designed, how is it possible for humans to have even survived without Divine help, leave alone ruling the planet. Its hard to get your head around this concept and yet there are some people who go on without giving this a thought or even dismiss any help.
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim
A’uzu billahi min ash shaitanir rajim
This morning something popped into my thoughts that I knew was waswas. It was so funny that I had to write this letter to shaitaan summarizing all of the serious whispers as a reminder to myself. Psst..keep your friends close and your enemies closer 🙂 Continue reading
In the name of Allah, The Most Loving
Its so peaceful out here
A hurricane of rage and exasperation swirls off my mind. Feeling helpless in particular for those who don’t understand Islam, yet consider themselves qualified enough to wave it off like an annoying fly. This is not a good feeling because this is how the devil rolls. Creating resentment in both sides Continue reading
Just like I see many fingers pointing out, I see a very few fingers pointing in. Its really annoying to see that people actually crib about the faults of others when the have similar faults themselves. We all fall short. Nobody is perfect, this may be the most clichéd things about humans but its true.
Even our beloved Prophet ﷺ has said “All the children of Adam constantly err, but the best of those who constantly err are those who constantly repent.” [Tirmidhi, Ibn Majah, Ahmad, Hakim]
Today I see too many fingers pointing out.
If you are a muslimah but you are not a hijabi, if you are a hijabi, you are not a niqabi, if you don’t have a beard you are not a true muslim, if you are a revert you are not a real muslim (true story), if you are a namazi you are too religious, if you support jihad you are an extremist, if you listen to music you are a sinner, if you made mistakes you are not good enough, if you are gay, you are evil, if you are a smoker you are a bad muslim Continue reading
Have you ever faced times in your life where it felt like your world is crumbling around you?. Like nothing you do is working no matter how hard you try. Every door is shut tight and no one can hear your cries. How could they, the cries of a soul has no sound, only pain Continue reading