From a Salaam to a Dua

Assalamu alaikum, everyone

I’m back after a long long time but I really wanted to share this thing that struck me recently and I couldn’t think of a better time to start posting again.

So I have many of these amazing anecdotes about my life after conversion (more coming insha Allah) and though I haven’t shared them all, I always revisit the memories to extract the beauty, love, boost of imaan, and positivity I felt at the time.

Today I was reminded of this thing that happened to me thanks to our amazing faith. And subhan Allah I realized there is so much richness in these reflections, like a gold mine that never runs out of gold. Its not something that I normall reminiscence about.

To give a background, I recently read a lovely status by Abu Eesa on facebook and I just couldn’t stop appreciating the impact of a sunnah as simple as smiling genuinely. This triggered the memory of something that happened in my own life.

Some two years ago, when I was working at a company, I had tasked myself with emulating the sunnah of saying salaam to any Muslim woman I’d come across while traveling. Now for an introverted reserved person like me, that’s a cause of major social anxiety. I am not talkative and small talks are a kryptonite.

But to be honest I loved the idea of greeting other Muslims so much I wanted to make this a part of my life. When you’re a revert out and about in the world, you feel this inexplicable desire to connect with others of your faith. As if saying, hey me too!

Alas, I could count the actual times I said salaam over a period of almost a year on my fingers. It was rewarding but stressful and I wasn’t at a place where I was completely confident of myself.

One instance actually took an adrenaline rush of running at full speed to board a train to finally say salaam to a girl that would be on the same train. I was gathering the courage for DAYS. Not to mention that was weird, creepy and what not. Me cooling down from all the huffing and puffing just to

Not to mention it was weird, creepy and what not. Me in the middle of all huffing and puffing saying Salaam. WEIRD. I am sure I must’ve scared her.

But I did get a sweet salaam in return and consequent days of knowing nods and smiles every time we spotted each other. Score!

However, the reason for this whole post is another incident on the metro. This time I wasn’t dead from running. I was actually standing comfortably by a door, minding my own business when this Muslim lady walked in at a stop to stand right next to me. I was feeling unusually relaxed.

I blurted out a quick salaam and she turned in surprise with a wa alaikum salaam and questioning eyes. She asked me if I knew her because I am guessing it isn’t common to say salaam to strangers where I come from. I told her I was just saying salaam.

We had a common destination and I went on my way towards another mode of transport I was supposed to take. Yeah , we are hardcore travelers in Mumbai even if its the same city. So there she was right ahead of me on her way to the station.

She was relieved to see me and immediately asked where she could find the ticket counter being new to the whole public transport thing. I directed her and her response made me very happy at the time but I didn’t think about it much. Until now.

“Thank you! Please tell me your name, I’ll make dua for you.”

To be honest, this incident doesn’t figure in all the anecdotes I fall back on when I get low and can do with a dose of reminder and imaan. But after reading the post that triggered the memory I just couldn’t help appreciating the beauty and mercy of it all.

A simple salaam attracted a chain of events where I was put in the position to help a confused worried stranger. I know this isn’t big deal. There were tens of people there who could have directed her and no one would’ve given a second thought to it. Heck, even I didn’t.

But the fact that she told me she would make dua for me is something I have only now come to see the beauty of. This is not just about the positivity but the doors (in my case, the door of a potential dua) that are opened to us when we follow simple sunnahs.

May Allah enable us to implement the sunnah such that it becomes a natural part of our lives. Ameen.



Finding Divinity

One of the first verses of the Qur’an I remember leaving a huge impact on me was this –

And We did not create the heaven and earth and that between them in play. (21:16)

It kind of explained why the whole life thing felt a little off. Everyone going about like it’s not a miracle to be a living breathing accident. And it felt good for the elephant in the room, our random seeming existence, to be finally addressed. I felt understood.

We all have those philosophical questions and we all don’t know what to do with them.

So some of us pile them into the back of a closet with our old toys and rhyme books, chipped hearts and cracked self-esteems and souvenirs collected on our way to growing up. I did just that.

We tell ourselves stories about aliens controlling us or finding a portal to another dimension. The stories keep getting deeper and darker so we can forget the crushing weight of our own curiosity.

I finally felt like I do not have to wonder endlessly or carry that weight alone.

By the time I read about verses that get the most limelight and their weird interpretations, I had absorbed so much of the Qur’an these things didn’t feel out of place or scary. It felt interesting like when someone tells you a crazy gossip about your BFF and you find it funny how this person thinks they know your homie better than you do. And indeed the words of Allah are above any analogy.

I felt hopeful, understood and humbled that God cares about good old principles and morality like it would matter when the world ends. You can’t help but respect a book that understands you more than you can even begin to understand yourself let alone God.

To Be One With Nature

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم 


I have a thing for nature, it gives me this spiritual high to think I am a part of this breathtaking glory. Its like a battleground out there and everyday is a war, just to see another day.In a recent camping trip I found out how vulnerable as humans we really are. How in the world, did we fragile and physically disadvantaged beings come to be so much more while others are busy surviving. I keep wondering and wondering over this but in the end all I have left to say is alhamdulilah! Allah (subhana wa ta’ala) has really favored us.

And We have certainly honored the children of Adam and carried them on the land and sea and provided for them of the good things and preferred them over much of what We have created, with [definite] preference.[17:70]

The competition is cut throat out there. No muslim can go without saying subhanAllah or Allahu Akbar after watching any of the wild life shows on tv or any mind blowing discovery that science makes. I can’t get enough watching nature at its best and the humility that comes with it. In this war of the most skilled and perfectly designed,  how is it possible for humans to have even survived without Divine help, leave alone ruling the planet. Its hard to get your head around this concept and yet there are some people who go on without giving this a thought or even dismiss any help.

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Islam: My Religion Of Peace

In the name of Allah, The Most Loving

Its so peaceful out here

A hurricane of rage and exasperation swirls off my mind. Feeling helpless in particular for those who don’t understand Islam, yet consider themselves qualified enough to wave it off like an annoying fly. This is not a good feeling because this is how the devil rolls. Creating resentment in both sides Continue reading

Introspection Is The Key

بسم الله

Just like I see many fingers pointing out, I see a very few fingers pointing in. Its really annoying to see that people actually crib about the faults of others when the have similar faults themselves. We all fall short.  Nobody is perfect, this may be the most clichéd things about humans but its true.self reflection

Even our beloved Prophet ﷺ has said “All the children of Adam constantly err, but the best of those who constantly err are those who constantly repent.” [Tirmidhi, Ibn Majah, Ahmad, Hakim]

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Read, In The Name Of Your Lord

بسم الله

Image Today I see too many fingers pointing out.

If you are a muslimah but you are not a hijabi, if you are a hijabi, you are not a niqabi, if you don’t have a beard you are not a true muslim, if you are a revert you are not a real muslim (true story), if you are a namazi you are too religious, if you support jihad you are an extremist, if you listen to music you are a sinner, if you made mistakes you are not good enough, if you are gay, you are evil, if you are a smoker you are a bad muslim Continue reading

We Believe


Have you ever faced times in your life where it felt like your world is crumbling around you?. Like nothing you do is working no matter how hard you try. Every door is shut tight and no one can hear your cries. How could they, the cries of a soul has no sound, only pain Continue reading