Eid For A Revert

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

So this year will be my second Ramadan inshaAllah and it is near enough to make me feel what I am feeling right now. But alhamdulilah ala kulli haal. For indeed with hardship comes ease, Indeed with hardship comes ease [94:5-6]

 

As Ramadan approaches

my anticipation has a company.

I smile at the blessed month of joy

but dread the sinking feeling

 

Its a time of mercy

So what’s making me so anxious

The countdown hasn’t begun

You may ask, what’s the fuss?

 

Well, its particularly Eid

when its all in the family

A festive time of nearness

I am swept by a painful yearning

 

Bright joyous faces

Happy childhood memories

To a heart that longs

My Lord knows what they mean

 

Suddenly I am ashamed,

then comes a wave of mercy.

How I failed to think about

those not as lucky as me

 

A brother far far away

sits exhausted and lonely

as a husband and a dad

holding back tears quietly

 

Someone who starves often

from the festivities is afar

Every loaf is a luxury

For him, every meal is iftar

 

Hearts bleed and homes are burnt

Another day another war

A way to live, a peaceful life

It is all that they used to ask for

 

I lower my head in realization

With gratitude, I pray

and raise my hands in thanks

Still looking for words to say

 

Ya’Allah, engulf us in mercy

And shower us with Your grace

Give us enough strength from You

so there’s nothing we couldn’t face

 

You accept even our meagre deeds,

And forgive from them the worst.

With all my heart I still await a month

When You sent Your merciful Words…